"The Waiting is the Hardest Part"

"The waiting is the hardest part"... ya, ya, ya, you're preaching to the choir Tom Petty!!!

Still no results on the PET (and yes, I've left messages w/ my Drs office).  I can't tell you how frustrated, annoyed, pissed, scared, anxious and a mess I've been the last few days.  In the past while waiting on results, I've felt these emotions to a certain degree, but this time around it's different.  This time it's worse!!  We're just SO terribly close to where we need to be... one manageable lesion on my liver!  That's not too much to ask, is it?!?  I was telling someone earlier that I'm getting to the point where I don't want to know.  I don't want to deal with the possibility of having to change treatments because my chemo cocktail is no longer working.  I've got these side effects down... I don't want to deal with any new ones!  And really, there's nothing I can do at this point, but wait for the results.  In the meantime, I'll continue to work on finding the on/off switch to my brain... these sleepless nights are doing a number to the bags under my eyes!  I think I've aged 10 years in the last few days!  ;)

As usual, I'll keep you posted when I hear something...