Que Sera Sera

After meeting with Dr H, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The PET results are in and even though we're still seeing 2 lesions on my liver, we have the disease under control everywhere else.  So here is the deal... We're seeing more "uptake" in the main lesion on my liver, meaning more cancer activity.  This of course isn't what we were hoping for, wanting or expecting, but there might be a reason for this.  Dr H thinks that necrosis may have destroyed blood vessels along its path of cancer cell destruction, ultimately preventing the drugs access to this specific tumor/area.  Well, if this chemo cocktail can't infiltrate that war zone, then who's to say another chemo cocktail will.  So the good news there... I'm not having to change drugs right now.  WHEW!   So where does that leave us?!?  Surgery!  This is ultimately where we were heading.  Even though the lesions didn't shrink like we were wanting them to, they're thankfully not any bigger and we still have the disease under control everywhere else.  There are 2 surgical oncologists that specialize in abdominal type surgeries that Dr H recommends. There's Dr. Aloia in Houston and Dr. Kahlenberg in San Antonio. I'm setting up a consultation with each Dr to discuss what my options are (removing the lesions, freezing the lesions, liver surgery in combo w/ removing my ovaries, etc).  So if anyone has any input on either of these 2 Drs, I'm all ears!  In the meantime, looks like I have a couple of road trips to make in my near future... Stay tuned for "the rose ceremony!"  Dr Aloia or Dr Kahlenberg... who will get the final rose?!?


Oh, and yes, I will continue on w/ the chemo cocktail that I am currently on until I have this surgery.  If anything, I may cut back on the Navelbine as the surgery gets closer (whenever that will be) because that particular drug effects my WBC count so much.  And believe me, I'll need all the WBC I can take for a quick and easy recovery!!

This has been an exhausting last couple of days... this morning I woke up w/ Doris Day's Que Sera Sera stuck in my head.  It's hard to accept that whatever will be (will be), but I think this surgery is a step in the right direction to kicking this cancer's ass!  Que Sera Sera!

P.S.  I thought it was appropriate to change up the lyrics a bit... Please sing along and enjoy!  ;)

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I have cancer, will I be Stage IV
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have chemo, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have nieces of my own
They ask their aunt, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.