Deja Vu

Wednesday night I woke up at 2:30 in the morning with a pain in my right side (yep, that would be my liver).  Before I knew it I was laying there with tears streaming down my face... not because the pain was that bad, but it was the helplessness that I was feeling.  The sense of defeat.  I knew this was a sign that my chemo cocktail was not doing what it was supposed to be doing and every time I have to change drugs I experience this sense of feeling defeated.  

I was able to get in for a CT scan on Thursday and the results are in... sure enough, the 3 existing lesions on my liver have gotten bigger.  Thankfully there aren't any new lesions and thankfully my lab work couldn't be better, but this does mean that we'll need to change up my chemo cocktail... Again!  

I'll meet with Dr. H on Monday to discuss what my options are.  Hmmm, talk about deja vu!